I love you?/ Wednesday, August 16, 2006
(Left my whole fly in Eazt cozt enjoyin...Im sum where dere..)
(Me in east coast..ppl alwaiz make fun of me wen i show my pictz so i oni put dem in bloggie...LOl)
Okz soo long i no update...tink im gona make it short...Kz...On sat i went 2 boogie nyte..kindaf ok larz...i dressed up 80z...but dun haf der fotoz ryte now...haven upload in comp...afta i upload i show...hahaz...I waz kindaf hip wearin wig n all tat yea...lol...Der prob bout Indianz esp Youngsterz is tat,deyr all soo god damn self conciouz...i mean itz Boogie Nyte...HELLO!!!..4 heavenz sake...diz iz der oni time where u can drezz up lyk a crazy retro chick or fella...U guyz alwaiz wear modern everydae...so lyk 2 get in2 der mood we haf 2 actually dress ryte...well WAT WAZ I TINKIN??..I mean if it waz a english event...den ok...but y wud a tamilan want 2 b sportin?...aniway moz of dem oni cum dere 2 show off demzelvez n 2 look @ gurlz...Nowadaez no 1 goez 4 der Real tng which iz makin sum noize,njoyin der show,stuttin ure stuff,n dancin till u break a leg...Yea so im juz damn pizt n dissapointed wid Indianz...particularly Tamilanz...haiz...Wen r dey eva gonna learn?...Sighz...N yaa...I waz lyk soo waitin 4 der dance floor...If u guyz noe me,im a vry 'move ure body gal...I LUB DANCIN!!!...soo ya...haiz...dey were playin such nize songz tat i cudn dance 2...coz der folkz were gettin tired n my dad waz annoyed wid der guyz lookin @ me...(stupid ryte...i mean mozt of dem cum 4 tat oni...itz not my problem aniwaiz...)..So y do i haf 2 suffer?...I seriouzly dunno...haiz..can nva change an Tamilanz tinkin...
Im a bit confuzed ryte now...i mean my mom had been saein i haf vry low self esteem...she said im vry conciouz 2...coz im not happi wid how i look...but on der oder hand,mozt of der ppl hu seez me der firzt time said i haf der confidence of a model..(Though i dun haf der lookz..N not 4 gettin der body...LOL!!)..I mean 4 xample der Boogie nyte,my siz waz soo embarresed bout our drezzin n herz of coz coz it waz different frm oderz...she pulled off her wig...But though i waz embarressed 2 i still pulled it off der whole dae wid my wig n my 80z dresscode...actualli i nva once felt unconfidant of wat i waz wearin..coz i noe wat suitz me n i waz darin enof 2 wear wat my heart wantz rather tan 2 lizten 2 oderz or fear wat oderz r tinkin...n i noe confirm tat hu eva hu iz born wid a hair lyk minewud definateli haf a rebonded hair by now..but im still keepin it 2 gether n refuze 2 neaten up my hair though ive got tempted vry often...but i noe tat my heart will nva allow me 2 rebond my hair...till now i juz dunno y...mayb im self stisfied without me realizin it...but still i complain bout myzelf...Y m i so complicated...hahaz...I myzelf dunno whether im Confident or not...U guyz need 2 help me out here...u tink im confident?...LOL!!...I noe itz pathatic...im askin bout myzelf 2 u guyz...well...i m a dong aniwaiz..(Oopz sry GV...Juz uzed ure nick az mine...lol)...Correctionz...I m a GONG!!!...Well tatz it 2 dae till nxt time...
Confuzed & Complicated....
Queen-of-GongZzzzzzzzZZzzz....(Sry no new pictz 2 upload yet...ill upload wen i getit in der comp...)
Where were you when skies were grey
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